A Nocturnal Tryst
Who are you?
you havent given me your name.
Who are you?
why now you just came.
I want to tell you that I missed you and longed for you.
but how, I dont even know you.
I can feel you , everything in you and even feel your lips touch mine.
but still, why cant I see you.
You have been coming in and out my dreams for years now.
You come to me at most thrice in a year.
This is weird.
Are you real? are you someone dreaming of me too?
Is this the only way we could reach each other? In our dreams?
When do I see your face?for real...
I know there is someone...
Its just that when I wake up..
I could no longer remember how you look.
all that lasts is how i feel you, how you've touched me.
This is weird.
Even in those dreams, we we're lovers apart.
Even in those dreams, you're not mine.
Somebody else has you, there was no "we".
Someone wants us apart, who are they?
Is this how its gonna be....?
Against All Odds... Oh..why me.
^^bummer^^
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I have been into this dream.. dreams in a way i seldom have. Who is she? I dream of her once, twice or luckily thrice a year in some random night. When i dream of her tonight, She won't be coming back the next night. Even if i force myself to go back into that dream. all i get is mere disappointment.
When i say i can feel her. the dream was not just any other dream. it felt so real, i can feel my heart beat rapidly raising everytime im with her. i can feel her touch, her embrace, the warmth, the kiss, and the love... Who Are you...? please let me know.
Lips Of An Angel
(Hinder)
Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(And I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
Honey why you calling me so late
Maagang pasalubong
Yesternight.
im in the state of devouring into every grub that suits my taste. at this point im typing and eating pringles (once you pop, you can't stop) just the right tag line.
Staring Voids.
Oh drew me back into lucidity.
Into stationary ethos,
to unknown mental means
and inconsistent rationalities.
Light my path towards the proem of reality.
Give me back the rapture that it brings me.
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oct. 27. (today)
7:45am : (Someone knocking at the door)
*i was still in bed, covered with blanket*
as soon as i heard the 3rd knock, i answered and asked who was outside. The person answered he was sent by Rheena. So i rolled over till i reached the edge of the bed and got up. Opened the door and greeted the guy.
Visitor: Good morning Sir. Pinabigay ni Rheena ning iyang pasalubong
*he was talking in mixed tagalog-cebuano*
Me: Ok, Thanks so much. Asa diay siya gikan? (Saan siya galing?)
*his eyes went wide as soon as he heard me talk in cebuano with a sign of relief*
Visitor: Nagbakasyon man to sila sa iyang mama sa Lucena.
*hands me the pasalubong. a bucket of Special Brojas and a plastic ware full of smoked fish*
Me: Yay! too many.. Unsaon man nako ni ug hurot?. *laughs* (Paano ko to uubusin?)
Visitor: Hinay-hinayi na ug kaon sugod karon, sir. *laughs* Sige sir, mo-uli na ko. (Dahan-dahan mo nang kainin ngayon - uuwi na ako)
Me: Sige, Salamat!
Okay right now i think i can manage to eat this brojas but the smoked fish.. hmmm.. my mini fridge is already fumed by it. So anyone wanna come over for a smoked fish lunch party? hahaha!
when im bored. this happens.
Thanks Maan.
just not my day
i had a very tiring and icky day. the air is so damn warm, i cant seem to last the feverish temperature outside. i went to URC this morning, talk to some of their management staff. saw how everything works at the plant. after that i had to wait outside for my friend, i waited at the car cant turn on the AC since i dont have the keys, well its just too damn hot. i was pretty much oven baked inside. seems like every passing minute all my energy just drained out of me. We stopped by at a seaside resto before heading home. The air is still hot, its way damn hard to breathe. I felt like i didnt even chewed the fucking food just wanting to get out of the place right away. AFter we ate we didnt even stayed for the usual chats, i asked my friend to drop me off somewhere so he won't have to divert his route just to send me home. As i got home i cranked the AC to the fucking full blast. i was too damn tired to take a bath and since i just got back and felt like my body was burning hot i elected not to soak my body yet with water. had to take a couple of minutes rest before i do that. so i just changed clothes and went to lie down on my bed. i still feel icky and uncomfy but the restlessness won over the latter two. i just submitted myself to a deep slumber instead. woke up past 5pm it was almost getting dark. eventhough the room temp is already freezing cold, i still feel warmth inside that i just want to let out. yeah yeah... i just need this one long relaxing bath....oh please drown me with water (TAP WATER). no heaters! i even had the cold water flowed completely in the tub. and yes at last!!!! i stayed soaked for almost an hour, before my skin gets all wizened. i feel soooo light... soooo rested... well not really rested, my eyes' a bit droopy still. i have a dinner invitation, a simple birthday dinner. so i went, hey its already a free meal so what not. right? i wasnt that sociable so i asked the celebrant to excuse me way early.. i told em im not feeling really well, good that they understand.. since they knew pretty much my itinerary of this day. i got back, went directly to bed.. washed and changed...lights off..turned the tv..and waited for my eyes to completely shut out.
since i still cant sleep...ill just dose myself here.
MAAN - can i ask for your mailing/home address, please...?
another moving day
i still feel like this layee is a mess. errr. "bahala na"
a mango float with a twist. i promised Yna (a 4-yr old chinky little girl) id make her some mango float, after CJ was bragging all about it to her the other day, when Cj and I took her to the mall and treat her to some kiddie rides, ice cream and a whole lotta junks. Cj mentioned it while we were at ice castle's. So before we went home we had to buy the ingredients first. well, it's still the normal float. but i topped it with crushed choco filled cream-o's. ooohhh the good thing in here..is that we're pretty much generous with the mangoes since its cheaper eventhough its off season. you can still get one cheap.
after buying i wasnt feeling too well...a little dizzy, i opted not to go with them for dinner and just get some rest besides it Ninang Cj and Yna's bonding session.
i bid Yna goodbye and she kissed me on the cheeks, yeah not to forget that her lips was full of saliva drips since she was slurping on a big mickey mouse lollipop.
when i got back at my place i popped some of my migraine med and made the float..then hit the bed.
moving on...moving out.
i officially moved out of my parents house when i was off to college. unofficially i did moved out a long time ago, when they sent me to boarding school up on top of the Swiss alps! geez! (hehehe!)
i stayed there til i graduated from HS/6th Form. I started there as a fresher(Junior School/1st Form) just right after my 11th bday. Since I was already educated in an Int'l School System they chose to put me into another Int'l School System though the previous one was adopting an American IS while the boarding school that im about to join is a British IS. only during school breaks that we are allowed to go home but there are times that we wont be going home since there are school's complementary programmes that we will be attending to since our parents paid for it. i.e. expeditions(ski tours). what i like most was the free skiing and snowboarding twice a week even on regular school days. after i got out of HS/6th Form, i then was busy preparing for college, though im already on the same country where i lived it is still in another city. that's why i have to move out. i first stayed in a school dorm. I have one room mate JT. he was cool, we've been like bros in just a click. one good thing about him as a room mate was we were on the same course. so we practically have same classes (well most). so we can exchange notes and cross checking each other's papaerworks. after a sem surviving college and maintaining a well damn good grades i have this fund that will provide me for additional financial capability to be able to have an apartment of my own. I got myself a flat (on the top floor of the building it has one spacious bedroom w/ bathroom, a living room, a kitchen, a dinning room, and a separate guest RR). months after living in the apartment i had one of my ex-gf(was my gf that time) to move in with me. had the relationship going for more than a year and we eventually split up. of course, since i own the place... she moves out. well, she only had her clothes and some girl stuff. i still had the apartment even when i graduated from college and had a job. with the job's worth. i was able to buy myself a lot and built a house.. well its located at the countryside so its pretty much a longer drive far off the city. that's why i still kept the apartment since im staying there on weekdays... and on weekends i go home to my own house for unwinding and relaxation. most of my home's design was from my own concept.. it's a contemporary country/cottage house(meaning it has a look of a country house but a different feel of modernistic design inside). after i resigned from my first job, i gave up the apartment since i will no longer be staying much of my time on weekdays back in the city. then i was able to take a job overseas..meaning here. but before i head here, the company that asked me to come sent me first in australia for a 3-month training. i went home after the said training, visited my parents and came here. in one whole year i did went home almost every end of the month and on special holidays. also, i was sent to other places aside from here to check out some things related for the project and also for trainings. though the job was really good, i decided not to renew my contract any longer. i still am working as an off-house consultant for the company that sent me here but my contract for the project in this country is what i opted not to renew. not that i did not like to stay anymore. my work is done and has no need to pursue further, and that would mean if i stay..is an additional expense for them. im just simply helping out. lessen the burden. :)
blog change
I got tired of my other layee..i needed something fresh and light. :P errr..
Remember how we often recite this before Speech class starts. its like a introductory prayer and we go in unison.. blah blah...
and i thought after gradeschool i wont recite this again.. errr... i guess i was wrong. :D
When the English tongue we speak
Why is "break" not rhymed with "weak"?
Won't you tell me why it's true
We say "sew", but also "few"?
And the maker of a verse
Cannot rhyme his "horse" with "worse"?
"Beard" is not the same as "heard".
"Cord" is different from "word".
"Cow" is cow, but "low" is low,
"Shoe" is never rhymed with "foe".
Think of "hose" and "dose" and "lose",
And think of "goose" and yet of "choose",
Think of "comb" and "tomb" and "bomb",
"Doll" and "roll" and "home" and "some".
And since "pay" is rhymed with "say",
Why not "paid" with "said" I pray?
Think of "blood" and "food" and "good";
"Mould" is not pronounced like "could".
Why is it "done", but "gone" and "lone" --
Is there any reason known?
To sum it up, it seems to me
That sound and letters don't agree.
Hazimeister
